Frankly speaking, NTU doesn't serve too lousy breakfast huh? Booster for the week of studying.
Study hard everyone!
Thursday, 23 April 2015
NTU breakfast
Frankly speaking, NTU doesn't serve too lousy breakfast huh? Booster for the week of studying.
Study hard everyone!
Thursday, 2 April 2015
Somewhere I don't Belong
I went to somewhere I shouldn't have today.
It was filled with fun, laughter and joy. With happy faces, anticipation, excitement and energy, yet all I felt was disappointment. unhappiness and regret. Deep in my heart, I knew I would love to be part of that family, that big happy family. And I did try to belong there, and I died trying. Maybe it's different now, maybe it's genuine fun inside, maybe it's happiness erupting from within. But I will never know, never ever again, because my head won't let me step in again. It's like a wall, a sturdy wall that will keep me safe with myself. I don't want to be anymore disappointed. I cannot contain anymore unhappiness.
As everyone was still having fun, I told myself it's time for me to leave. No point getting so caught up over this. I don't belong here anymore. After all, I will still be alone, all those skin-deep acquaintances will forget me very soon and then it will be back to square one.
That tingling sensation in my heart will die off someday. The dreamy thoughts of what-ifs. The yearning to be with them. I will be fine alone. I will be fine without them. I will belong somewhere.
It was filled with fun, laughter and joy. With happy faces, anticipation, excitement and energy, yet all I felt was disappointment. unhappiness and regret. Deep in my heart, I knew I would love to be part of that family, that big happy family. And I did try to belong there, and I died trying. Maybe it's different now, maybe it's genuine fun inside, maybe it's happiness erupting from within. But I will never know, never ever again, because my head won't let me step in again. It's like a wall, a sturdy wall that will keep me safe with myself. I don't want to be anymore disappointed. I cannot contain anymore unhappiness.
As everyone was still having fun, I told myself it's time for me to leave. No point getting so caught up over this. I don't belong here anymore. After all, I will still be alone, all those skin-deep acquaintances will forget me very soon and then it will be back to square one.
That tingling sensation in my heart will die off someday. The dreamy thoughts of what-ifs. The yearning to be with them. I will be fine alone. I will be fine without them. I will belong somewhere.
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