Self Love

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French Toast Hearts
Made myself some simple breakfast of wholemeal bread dipped with egg, sprinkled with sugar this morning(:

(Sort of invented my own recipe because I am lactose intolerant -- which means the usual french toasts recipes won't work for me -- no milk, no cream. Plus, I do not have a fridge in my hall.. which explains my limited ingredients) BUT. It still tastes awesome nonetheless(:

xxx

Just my two cents on self love..

I guess it all begins when we start to love other people too much that we lose ourselves. Constantly chasing after their footsteps, relying on their occasional positive affirmations to bolster our sense of being good enough...

Being on call 24/7, and 'okay man', and being there for everyone. We neglect ourselves -- our needs, wants, etc. We get lost in the overwhelming requests and expectations and sometimes we end up struggling and suffocating. Yes, we know that all these ain't good for our well-being, but we really cannot help it: we just hate disappointments.

Disappointments of others hit really hard on us, we start to think where we've done wrong, where we should do better in. I am not implying that self-reflective actions or thoughts are not ideal; it's why we do them for. And more often than not, all these manifesting thoughts are because we are unable to 'satisfy' others.

There are many times that I tell myself firmly: stop living for other people. It always starts on pretty good until the sense of guilt hits me and all the attempts will fall short. Pushing my own needs to the back of my head and just agreeing to help out, I just cannot ever seem to say 'no' to others. Yes, I understand that my needs should always come first and no, I am not saying that we should be selfish potatoes and ignore all requests -- We just need to prioritise our own happiness and feelings first.

I really isn't easy to change, and I am definitely still swimming in the pool of expectations. I am still trying to get out of the drowning waters and I am certain I am loving myself more each day(:

xxx

"You were born to be real, not perfect."